Hello 2019

Greetings! Hey guys!

Happy New Year 2019!

Haha I know its kinda late for a new year post but I just felt like this time it is worth of posting. I am just going to recap of my achievements that I did of course. 2018 has been a blissful year for me. Alhamdulillah there were lots of good things compared to the bad ones. However, I still felt grateful because by far it was my most memorable year of all.

In the early months of 2018, I finally found a person who is worthy of my time and effort. I found the courage to confess to the love of my life. ( Glad, I wasnt rejected haha) I found a kind of work position that actually fits my role and personality. I improved my piano skills eventho it is kinda decent. (playing it less now) I found a way of handling and organizing things better. I memorized a lot prayers (doa) and quran's verses a lot compared to my last year. I learnt to keep my cool and keep my patience at a higher level. I observed and study people's behavior and keep a list of ways to handle them (yeah even the most annoying ones)

I advised young people especially my students of general things about life and kept them optimistic. I improved of my time management a little (but still needs more fix on that one haha). I appreciated people who came and left in my life (may Allah bless them all). I watched a lot of Dr Zakir Naik videos a lot during my free time and kinda memorize his speeches when he preaches. ( Yeah, he kinda repeats it during the Q&A session ) I used to speak more bluntly and didnt really care but now I spoke mildly to everybody even to those people who I despise. I spent time with my old friends a lot, while catching up on each other's life. I am also able to differentiate a friend who are true friends and friends with benefits.

I began to have goals of my own to achieve in a certain time period. I was more clear on my judgments and analyse more on mistakes rather than quickly pinpoint on people. All in all, I am 50% happier than I was before. There were much improvement and I was very happy about it so far.

There are one thing that I am kinda concern about and that is my resolution. It will probably be weird since I did a post on 2016 and a post on 2017 about my resolution before this. I actually am not so sure and didn't even plan for a new resolution for the year since this year alone, I already felt like I accomplished things a lot. I guess my only wish is to keep this happiness that I am feeling going on and on.

Cheers to another blissful year ahead of me and of course to all my loyal readers out there!

Autoimmune Disease (SLE)

Hey guys,😁😁😜

Recently I have received news on people whether its on the social media or the news that auto-immune diseases is a thing. Maybe on your country but here in Malaysia, yeah. One of my family members also has been diagnosed to have SLE ( Systemic Lupus Erythematosus ) which is one of the chronic disease within one of the autoimmune disease's family tree.

Lets be honest that at first I didn't know anything about the said diseases until I did some research on it. Systemic Lupus Erythematosus or its previous name, Discoid Lupus Erythematosus is basically similar to most autoimmune diseases but target mainly skins and nearby important organs of our body, which is why SLE patients usually are known to have visible skin rashes on their faces known as (Butterfly Rash) or some other parts of the body. 👀🤔

 ( Butterfly Rash aka SLE )

Lupus came from the latin word Wolf and Erythematosus came from latin word, meaning reddening of skin. 😊😊

It was Dr Cazenave in 1851 that first found a red rashes resembles like a wolf bite on one of his patients, and that was the time the diseases was named Discoid Lupus Erythematosus. Soon after a few years, it was found that the diseases didn't only affect skin but also affect other internal organs and some of our body systems. It was then changed to Systemic Lupus Erythematosus.

Nobody actually knows for 100% that how disease came into existence but some doctors were able to conclude a way or a theory of how the disease can be reduced. Some doctors had different opinions of how this autoimmune diseases are originated. Most of the victims consists of women rather than men. It seems to have a large tendency of affecting women since it has something to do with the hormone, estrogen. Despite that, some doctors thought maybe it has something to do with UV Rays, Hormones, Medication, Eating Habits, Genetics, and even surrounding Environment.

Let us now identify its symptoms..

Symptoms can vary and can change over time. Common symptoms include:

• severe fatigue
• joint pain
• joint swelling
• headaches
• a rash on the cheeks and nose, which is called a “butterfly rash”
• hair loss
• anemia
• blood-clotting problems
• fingers turning white or blue and tingling when cold, which is known as Raynaud’s phenomenon

Other symptoms depend on the part of the body the disease is attacking, such as the digestive tract, the heart, or the skin. Over time, SLE can damage or cause complications in systems throughout your body.

Possible complications may include:

• blood clots and inflammation of blood vessels
• inflammation of the heart
• a heart attack
• a stroke
• memory changes
• behavioral changes
• seizures
• inflammation of lung tissue and the lining of the lung
• kidney inflammation
• decreased kidney function
• kidney failure

SLE can have serious negative effects on your body during pregnancy. It can lead to pregnancy complications and even miscarriage. I would actually wonder as how would those SLE victims, or in this case my cousin felt once being diagnosed to have SLE. Its is so unfortunate of her. I will probably update more of her latest condition soon.

In the meantime, lets us all pray for her safety. Thank you

Beggar

I'm not sure if I'm the only one felt this way but every time I saw a beggars, children selling typical stuffs or some torn out woman/man came up to me asking for donations or money, I always had this inner urge to just let them sit down near me and talk about their life. How long they have been doing as such and how did they manage to generate an income to just survive the harsh world out here. Somewhere deep in my mind Im thinking of from their perspective like how did they made money, what is their goals, what is their motivation, what is their overall motives and what are their hopes for their future and probably their children. Generally all about it, made me curious.

I had this kind of thinking is because near my place, there was a city dumpster. This dumpster was located a few metres from my house and everytime I went out. I saw people look around 24-30 was basically scavenging for goods there. Every single day I kept my eye carefully on these people from what they do and when they came for scavenging. Slowly, I noticed that they came there every single day, scavenging and even to the point of going inside the dumpster looking for goods. It stinks yeah I know and to know that there's people out there willing to do such thing is kinda made me surprised. Heck, people do anything to survive I guess.

Anyhow, there was one day where I went outside early for Sahur, at a restaurant nearby. On my way back, I found that an elderly woman and a young man was sleeping at an alleyway in a box of cardboards. They were just waking up for Sahur as well. I really wanted to just walk up to them and ask them about themselves but somehow my inner self were so declining because of their smell when I decided to approach. It was soo barely bearable and I just went home afterwards. As I peek out of the window, I noticed that the elderly woman surely was sick. She was coughing a lot and it was kinda loud when she did.

Geez tell me, who doesnt get sick when you regularly hangout near a dumpster. She also looked like she didn't took a bathe for weeks. Haih.. I felt this swell of pity to those people seriously. Sincerely I really do. But considering my position and with I am now, I don't think I am qualify to do anything for those two let alone helping them when I barely able to help myself with my problems. Im not even sure what I can do help them either.

I do have a wish like joining non-government association in helping those people, but im not even sure myself where to start and where to apply. Knowing that, I just start to just do some one random act of kindness at a time, like donating a lot and even share some of my foods to those nearby beggars on the pasar malam. I have high hopes that I would instill great values within myself which who knows one day, maybe I could make an organisation of my own.

Ahhh, would it be great if I ever had one kan? 

Oh well, maybe I could and maybe I couldnt kan? Its for a good cause kot. Anyhow, cheers to that dream of mine. Hope one day it can be fulfilled.