" Hey Sam, who do you like? "
" Uhh, why? "
" I'll tell you who I like if you tell me who you like "
I'm thinking I don't necessarily like anyone in particular but for this transaction to go through I guess I needed to name someone. As a kid most of us haven't really had much time to know a lot of people, so my choices were limited to pretty much whoever was in my school, more specifically in my classrooms.
" Uhhh.. entah la, Dhia kot? "
" Ooooo!! Aku bagitau dia nanti ehhhh "
" Eh jab! Ko suka sapa pulak? Adoi nyesal bagitau "
So as a kid, I thought it was mandatory to just have someone in mind to admire. Obviously when you're young, you don't exactly know yet of what you personal criteria is of why you like someone. Growing up, you developed these things based on experiences and overtime you tend to narrow your taste down to a certain traits that a person must have in order for you to be interested. Like do they have a sense of humor, do they like animals, do they play video games, are they as weaboo as you, do they have a self esteem issue that forces them to undermine others in order to validate themselves under self worth...
Its up to you to determine these things so that if you were to pursue someone with those traits, then its safe to assume that you probably get along which is in my opinion is they key to a long lasting relationship. Despite that, when we were kid, lets be honest, we were shallow assholes.
"Kenapa suka Amirul?"
"Entah la, sebab dia baik and bagi saya pinjam pensel dia kot"
"Kenapa suka Shuhada?"
"Entah la, sebab dia cantik dan baik kot"
Like I said, shallow haha
When I was a kid, I tend to like the popular girls, not that cliche, bratty, everyone-is-trashed-beneath my-feet mean girls, but to girls that most guys have a crush on.
Afifah was the first one aside on all of them. I think it was around standard 3. She is a prefect at the time and looks like a naturally-born leader. She was that girl who looks kinda average but her knowledge about studies at the time was beyond imaginary. Somehow at that point, everything about her seems so beautiful which made my heart flutter at the time. Hahaha. Anyway, despite being in the same class, we rarely talks to each other. I was always the shy type of guy who afraid to be the 1st one to start a conversation and because of that we didn't really get to talk much during primary school. As time passed by, she got promoted to a higher class and I was left alone thinking that girls like her was way out of my league. Funny thing is that we were still good friends till now ^_^.
But that doesnt stop me from crushing on another girl... Hahaha
Khairunnisa was both an intelligent beauty and the sporty girl in the class. I think this was around standard 5 to 6? Im not sure myself. I don't really have a reason to talk to her, so I'm just admire her from a far. I remember that one time where the teacher had us read the textbook out loud to the class and once, it was Nisa's turn I gave her like 200% percent of my attention. As she was reading I was following along, I came across a word that I have never seen, but when she got to the word, " Fahrenheit ", she read it with no hesitance and I was so surprised and impressed which further my attraction to intelligence.
After that point on, I was on my own and pretty much ignore all the feelings to anyone that I had and tried to focus entirely on my studies. I had a resolution on that particular day, in which I thought that I was in a wrong kind of zone to involve in love. Besides my physical looks at that time didn't manage to captivate anybody since I'm such a fat-ass back then. Ughh Hate it soo much...
After that, I was thinking so deep that I put myself into assumption that what would it affect me if I get into relationship into someone at that particular age. The feeling however didnt fade away. The feeling to be felt loved and wanted is something that happened to everyone. Its a terrible feeling but I guess its normal. I suppose I should pet myself in the back for surviving such a harsh phase in my life. Wooohooo
Afifah was the first one aside on all of them. I think it was around standard 3. She is a prefect at the time and looks like a naturally-born leader. She was that girl who looks kinda average but her knowledge about studies at the time was beyond imaginary. Somehow at that point, everything about her seems so beautiful which made my heart flutter at the time. Hahaha. Anyway, despite being in the same class, we rarely talks to each other. I was always the shy type of guy who afraid to be the 1st one to start a conversation and because of that we didn't really get to talk much during primary school. As time passed by, she got promoted to a higher class and I was left alone thinking that girls like her was way out of my league. Funny thing is that we were still good friends till now ^_^.
But that doesnt stop me from crushing on another girl... Hahaha
Khairunnisa was both an intelligent beauty and the sporty girl in the class. I think this was around standard 5 to 6? Im not sure myself. I don't really have a reason to talk to her, so I'm just admire her from a far. I remember that one time where the teacher had us read the textbook out loud to the class and once, it was Nisa's turn I gave her like 200% percent of my attention. As she was reading I was following along, I came across a word that I have never seen, but when she got to the word, " Fahrenheit ", she read it with no hesitance and I was so surprised and impressed which further my attraction to intelligence.
You guys must be wondering..
" Err Come on, Sam takkan la Fahrenheit pon tak tau? "
Okay la...
" Dude, I was 11 at the time and the rest of the world guna " Celcius " okay? Gimme a break! Haha "
Eventually when I realised that I had zero chances with Khairunnisa, I developed a crush on another girl. .
" Norlila "
Lila was an another intelligent beauty in the class. Everytime our monthly exam, there was always her name within the top 5 in the class. I always asked her and she cheerfully willing to help me in every question that I asked her about studies. I kinda had more interactions with her since we are kinda in the same group of friends who studies together whenever theres a group work by the teachers. Later on, we all find out that she had a crush on Syafiq Daniel who was also one of my friends. You think I'll be upset or jealous of Syafiq Daniel, but looking back.. Syafiq Daniel was a pretty good-looking guy and also not a douchebag so, yeah good choice, not bad, no big deal. I got over it pretty quick.
After that point on, I was on my own and pretty much ignore all the feelings to anyone that I had and tried to focus entirely on my studies. I had a resolution on that particular day, in which I thought that I was in a wrong kind of zone to involve in love. Besides my physical looks at that time didn't manage to captivate anybody since I'm such a fat-ass back then. Ughh Hate it soo much...
After that, I was thinking so deep that I put myself into assumption that what would it affect me if I get into relationship into someone at that particular age. The feeling however didnt fade away. The feeling to be felt loved and wanted is something that happened to everyone. Its a terrible feeling but I guess its normal. I suppose I should pet myself in the back for surviving such a harsh phase in my life. Wooohooo
Oh speaking about crushes, let us all listen to David Archuleta - Crush. One of my favourite song of all time. :D
