Beggar

I'm not sure if I'm the only one felt this way but every time I saw a beggars, children selling typical stuffs or some torn out woman/man came up to me asking for donations or money, I always had this inner urge to just let them sit down near me and talk about their life. How long they have been doing as such and how did they manage to generate an income to just survive the harsh world out here. Somewhere deep in my mind Im thinking of from their perspective like how did they made money, what is their goals, what is their motivation, what is their overall motives and what are their hopes for their future and probably their children. Generally all about it, made me curious.

I had this kind of thinking is because near my place, there was a city dumpster. This dumpster was located a few metres from my house and everytime I went out. I saw people look around 24-30 was basically scavenging for goods there. Every single day I kept my eye carefully on these people from what they do and when they came for scavenging. Slowly, I noticed that they came there every single day, scavenging and even to the point of going inside the dumpster looking for goods. It stinks yeah I know and to know that there's people out there willing to do such thing is kinda made me surprised. Heck, people do anything to survive I guess.

Anyhow, there was one day where I went outside early for Sahur, at a restaurant nearby. On my way back, I found that an elderly woman and a young man was sleeping at an alleyway in a box of cardboards. They were just waking up for Sahur as well. I really wanted to just walk up to them and ask them about themselves but somehow my inner self were so declining because of their smell when I decided to approach. It was soo barely bearable and I just went home afterwards. As I peek out of the window, I noticed that the elderly woman surely was sick. She was coughing a lot and it was kinda loud when she did.

Geez tell me, who doesnt get sick when you regularly hangout near a dumpster. She also looked like she didn't took a bathe for weeks. Haih.. I felt this swell of pity to those people seriously. Sincerely I really do. But considering my position and with I am now, I don't think I am qualify to do anything for those two let alone helping them when I barely able to help myself with my problems. Im not even sure what I can do help them either.

I do have a wish like joining non-government association in helping those people, but im not even sure myself where to start and where to apply. Knowing that, I just start to just do some one random act of kindness at a time, like donating a lot and even share some of my foods to those nearby beggars on the pasar malam. I have high hopes that I would instill great values within myself which who knows one day, maybe I could make an organisation of my own.

Ahhh, would it be great if I ever had one kan? 

Oh well, maybe I could and maybe I couldnt kan? Its for a good cause kot. Anyhow, cheers to that dream of mine. Hope one day it can be fulfilled.