Bye 2019! Welcome 2020.

2019 has been quite a year and for once I think I made quite good progress towards my life goals. Some were somewhat late and took super long time to do but nevertheless I am happy that I did it. Last time I didn't really make any great progress towards it since the road has been tough and there is so much things caught along the way and of course! procrastination (entirely my fault) but now I manage to do it this time!! Wuuhooo!!. I think I made a list of what I did , just so that I keep tabs on these things

2019

Met & date the love of my life multiple times in a year.

Manages my free time and carefully plan for upcoming events

Remember important dates ( birthdays )

Manage to handle troublesome students professionally.

Voicing out ideas and speak up if there is a wrong doing

Give charity & Sedekah 3 times a week constantly

Handle my overthinking appropriately (but sometimes loses it)

Expressing my emotions and speak of the truth most of the time

Staying true to the rules and SOP all the time
Bought a new phone.

Bought a new car.

Bought a new gaming laptop.

Talk in a soft tone and less yelling most of the time

Learning new things regarding work for career advancements

Helping surveying places for work-opportunity

Handle troublesome work mates 

Understand the psychology of certain people and their views on stuffs

Do a bit more housework than usual.

Have a back-up savings for wedding-related stuffs

Respect and understand people in their tough situations

Love myself more even though people condemning behind my back

Making notes and reminders for future reference

Keeping my water intake stable

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Finally!

Making everyone I love, happy and delightful

Behind every successful person, theres people who kept giving support whenever they are down. As for me, I have my family and my ever-so-lovely girlfriend who never got bored supporting whenever I needed advice or a shoulder-to-cry on. They have always wanted the best for me and I am eternally grateful to them.

And of course!! My ( insert super cute words here ) beautiful sweetheart.. yeah saja nak letak sebab its not complete without a selfiee! :P

I just hope 2020 will be more meaningful than 2019. Nevertheless, I am thankful to Allah for His blessings and I sure hope I will be able to be better person than what I once was. May all of my readers here gets the blessing of Allah and I wish you goodluck! 2020 wehhhh!!

Sekejab jer kan?

Meaning of Life?

Hey guys!

I'm just going to get straight to the point by asking the simplest question you can ask a person.

So many people young and old have a tough time answering that question, but wouldn't you think that should be the first thing that we figure out? The purpose of our life. The reason why we're doing everything that we're doing. There's no right or wrong, everyone can have their own answers but to me the meaning if life is

I really believe that everything that we do throughout our lives is because we think its either make us happier or less unhappy than if we didn't do it. Even things we didn't wanna do, like study for a test all night. You're not gonna gain happiness from studying. Nobody likes studying unless some kind of a weird nerd.

You do it because you know it'll eventually lead you to happiness just like everything else that we do. Studying will help you pass the test and you'll be a lot happier if you pass rather than when you fail. Passing a test will lead to better grades. Better grades leads to better colleges. Better colleges increase your chances to secure a better job and makes more money, so you get a nicer car, a nicer house or eat at a fancy restaurants, whatever you wanna do later in life

Everyone does what they do because they think they're gonna make their overall life better than if they didn't do it. The reason why I bring these up and why I think its so important to understand the meaning of life is because life is gonna be more and more hectic when you go off on your own.

There's gonna be so many more things that you have to think about when you never think about as a kid. There's gonna be time when you get so overwhelmed by everything that you might get to the point that you'll consider of taking suicide as an option. Hah! I know I have. That's because life is like a box of chocolates. They can be sweet, they can be bitter and sometimes can get a little nutty oh and also the more you get into it, the fatter you get as well. (hahaha)

These low points of your life is gonna happen at some point if you wanna grow as a person. Maybe not to the point of considering suicide but just know that if it does get to that point, (hopefully not la kan) that, its not happening for no reason and there's can still be benefit from it. If you survive and figure your way out of that situation and that mind set, you have the mental strength to be able to deal anything in the future. You cant acquire that kind of strength without going extreme adversity. Its like a Saiyan from Dragonball. The more you beat up a Saiyan without killing him, the stronger he gets when he recovers.

I watch a lot of those all those successful individuals online because I had no idea what possible advice I can give to my students and I want to get an idea of what those famous people are talking about. A common theme that kept coming up that they were all giving advice on how to strive for greatness or how to reach your goals or how to become successful, like they are.

Its inspiring and true it is because they were telling you how they were like you when they were younger and they weren't anybody special and they do fail over and over and over before they found any success. I definitely agree with that message 100%  and like I mentioned earlier, you gonna have low points. Failure is a part of life, whether its a job interview or becoming a parent, or starting a family. Whatever it is, you're going to fail. I completely agree with that.

A lot of those speeches were very inspiring and they are helpful to help you reach what our society defines as "success" but before we figure out how to reach success in life. Shouldn't we at least try to figure out what success in life is? We spent so much time thinking about all these goals and dreams that we've had since were little kids and how we are gonna reach that goal. Sometimes we get too distracted that we forget why we're trying to strive for them in the first place. You can set and go after all the goals you want in life but its all leads back to the same thing, the meaning of life,

 " HAPPINESS "

That should be your primary, number one goal and everything else should come after. I know this will sound obvious, cliche and easier-said-than-done at times, but I personally think it's very important to have that at the back of your mind and keep reminding yourself that way when you start to stray from it, you'll recognize it. You'll be surprised, how many people including myself focus so much on how to reach individual goals or what our society defines as "success" that we don't even realize that we're not happy anymore and most of the time, that unhappiness is caused by ourselves. Its fixable but we don't even recognize it.

We get so caught up, chasing after these goals and stress ourselves out so much to the point that we're miserable but yet we just suck it up and we just keep going because we think that once we finally reach these goals then all the stress and unhappiness is gonna go away. Now I can tell you from personal experiences, that's not how it works.

If you're not happy with your life on your journey to your end goal, you're most likely not gonna be happy even after you reach it. Its like playing a video game. You don't play video game that you hate just because you think that you will be happy once you finally beat it. Its almost the exact opposite of that. The best part of the game is the journey. The moment you beat it. The fun is over, but its exactly that. The moment of "happiness" and that feeling will fade once the end credits comes rolling by. Then you're bored its time for a new game.

My point is don't let society point of definition dictate your goals and dreams. I personally think that it doesn't matter if you never reach any your goals or accomplished any one of your dreams. If you enjoy your journey, don't waste your time playing the game that makes you miserable just because you saw the glorified trailers whenever you finishes the game or because you saw all the hype around it.

If you're not having fun playing it, you're not getting anymore fun just because you beat the game. There's a lot of other games out there and the night is still young. You guys have the time. Find the game that's meant for you and have fun playing it. That's the whole purpose of playing the game. That's the whole purpose of this whole journey. That's the purpose of life.

Hope you guys have a wonderful journey!!

" Sincerely from Sam Rahmat "

The day that I met you

As I set my gaze on you that day

I only find my breath was taken away,

I was amazed by your beauty for awhile,

As you looked at me gracefully with a smile,

You were blushing as you said to me "Hi"

But my heart felt so contented that I cant even say "I"

We both looked at the ground and there were nothing,

But we both know in the end, we had to say something,

We act as if we are best friends,

Talking and hoping for the time to never ends,

You said you forgot to bring a gift for me

But you also forgot that the best gift is "You" for me to see

You felt sad for not bringing anything to the date

But dear, you forgot our goal is to celebrate

You brought me sunshine when I only saw rain

You brought me laughter when I only felt pain

We celebrate while listening to the radio rhyme

As we sit, we gazed, we laugh and eventually forgot the time

We looked onto each other and eventually cry

Especially at the most painful moment of saying goodbye

As the bus slowly calling passengers and departed

We cried in our texts, hoping that we never be seperated

Remember that, I gave you my favourite sweater?

Its so that you would always wear them and felt "together"

So dont be sad, dry our eyes, and let our tears be contained

So that in the near future we will meet and be happy again

Happy birthday, dear!!

I love you so much!

Reality

Reality of life has been hitting me several times in the back and been sweeping of my feet many times in these past few weeks. I am officially 25, if you count it my year, to be honest, I am kinda scared.

Okay la gurau, its not as exaggerating as that haha

Why? And scared of what?

I'm actually scared of not hitting my goals in my life. Many friends and people around me that I know got married and having some sort of huge savings and harta at my age. Looking at those people, I often compared them to myself. Like what are the flaws that I made to make me achieve my goal relatively late compared to others? What are their secrets in having such a good money management? How did they go travel sana-sini at such a young age, as if they have 1 million dollars in they banks? Did they pay their PTPTN / MARA like I do? Didn't they saved money like I did? Did they make personal loans? Did they borrow from their parents? Did they have some sort of high-pay salary?

These questions kept lingering in my head from time to time. At some point, I do feel like how do you made enough money and still manage to buy this and that and still looks happy as if you have nothing to worry. I am confused as well as jealous of these people.

I do plan on getting married and when I look back at my savings, I actually have doubts onto myself. I am not sure if I could pulled it off. I'm not even sure if its enough to pay for the dowry (hantaran) not to mention for the ceremony, the catering and soo on. There were so much things to pay, and when I do the calculation of my monthly savings. It shocked me a little.

It will probably took me more than 3 years to get all that done. I do searched on the internet on how to make a 2nd income, and it does helped me a little. Nevertheless, I am afraid. Afraid of not meeting expectations. I have disappoint many people in my life before but I cant afford to disappoint myself because of my own weakness. How I wish I was a kid again, ya know. Not to worry bout these things, not to worry about anything. 

At times like these, I felt like being in the Marvel Universe, get the Time stone from Doctor Strange and just reverse myself out of time. Hahaha. Would that be cool huh? 

But lets be honest, I would totally find myself abusing the stone from time to time. 

OR

Maybe a reality stone kan, creating money out of existence muahahaha

All jokes aside, I am working so hard in getting to my goals as I planned. I even found some ways on the net that I googled for me to generate a 2nd income that could help me from time to time. I guess sometimes its good to compare yourself to others, just so that I have more semangat to achieve what I wanted. I just hope everything will work out at the end.

Hello 2019

Greetings! Hey guys!

Happy New Year 2019!

Haha I know its kinda late for a new year post but I just felt like this time it is worth of posting. I am just going to recap of my achievements that I did of course. 2018 has been a blissful year for me. Alhamdulillah there were lots of good things compared to the bad ones. However, I still felt grateful because by far it was my most memorable year of all.

In the early months of 2018, I finally found a person who is worthy of my time and effort. I found the courage to confess to the love of my life. ( Glad, I wasnt rejected haha) I found a kind of work position that actually fits my role and personality. I improved my piano skills eventho it is kinda decent. (playing it less now) I found a way of handling and organizing things better. I memorized a lot prayers (doa) and quran's verses a lot compared to my last year. I learnt to keep my cool and keep my patience at a higher level. I observed and study people's behavior and keep a list of ways to handle them (yeah even the most annoying ones)

I advised young people especially my students of general things about life and kept them optimistic. I improved of my time management a little (but still needs more fix on that one haha). I appreciated people who came and left in my life (may Allah bless them all). I watched a lot of Dr Zakir Naik videos a lot during my free time and kinda memorize his speeches when he preaches. ( Yeah, he kinda repeats it during the Q&A session ) I used to speak more bluntly and didnt really care but now I spoke mildly to everybody even to those people who I despise. I spent time with my old friends a lot, while catching up on each other's life. I am also able to differentiate a friend who are true friends and friends with benefits.

I began to have goals of my own to achieve in a certain time period. I was more clear on my judgments and analyse more on mistakes rather than quickly pinpoint on people. All in all, I am 50% happier than I was before. There were much improvement and I was very happy about it so far.

There are one thing that I am kinda concern about and that is my resolution. It will probably be weird since I did a post on 2016 and a post on 2017 about my resolution before this. I actually am not so sure and didn't even plan for a new resolution for the year since this year alone, I already felt like I accomplished things a lot. I guess my only wish is to keep this happiness that I am feeling going on and on.

Cheers to another blissful year ahead of me and of course to all my loyal readers out there!