Love and Like

Heya guys! :)

Frankly speaking, I for one, never seem to understand what love really is and what like really is. Sometimes when I'll be honest to the person that I like/admire, they endup misunderstood me for loving them and as a result of that, I got zoned out instantly instead which is really frustrating and sad. ( yeah, i experienced it before ). On the other hand, when I spoke to the person that I love, they thought that I'm playing a joke and assume that as just "Like" which is probably why I never had anyone special before. To be honest, I'm really that all-out kind of person, I speak what I felt clearly so that there's no misunderstanding. (seriously, you don't find that kind of person everyday, that's what my friend told me tho) I don't know but that's just the way I am.

But anyway, love mood is in the air for me lately (too bad there's nobody to share it with) so here are some poetry or perhaps an enlightenment for those people out there who doesn't understand between "Love" and "Like". 

In front of the person you love, your heart beats faster 

But in front of the person you like , you get happy. 

In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring 

But in front of the person you like, winter is just a beautiful winter. 

If you look into the eyes of the one you love, you blush 

But if you look into the eyes of the one you like, you smile. 

In front of the person you love, you can' t say everything on your mind

But in front of the person you like, you can. 

In front of the person you love, you tend to get shy 

But in front of the person you like, you can show your own self. 

Then person you love comes into your mind every 2 minutes. 

You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you love 

But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you like. 

When the one you love is crying, you cry with them 

But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting. 

The feeling of love starts from the eye 

And the feeling of like starts from the ear. 

So if you stop liking a person you used to like 

All you need to do is cover your ears, 

But if you try to close your eyes 

Love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever after.

I hope this poem that don't really sound like a poem (probably cuz, the language looks really simple unlike most poems out there, #simplewriting) would made people out there who are just like me, to understand "Like" and "Love" more deeply from now on :) 

On the side note, I'm going to get my piano/keyboard soon, so I was thinking of making a piano cover of this song Setia from Elizabeth Tan Feat Faizal Tahir. What do you think? Hehe ( The lyrics are really lovely in my opinion )

Trust Issues?

Trust, An act of love or just underestimating someone? I dont know -_-

I have been thinking about this for a long time ever since the last week working day where people kept me in a distance from doing stuffs that I'm capable of doing. Truthfully speaking, I felt bad and felt myself being so little that people had to treat me like a kid. What's more painful is that this kind of things happen in my own family, my surrounding friends/mates and in between family members as well. (pretty much semua orang)

Being the honest person that I am, I tried voiced out my opinions on the treatment that they gave me and to my surprise. They listened. Yeah they only listened and never did what I thought they would do.  I guess they still doubt my capabilities, my efforts, my enthusiasm, my goals, my passion, my willpower, my hardwork and pretty much everything concerning myself. Sometimes in my tiny little head, I get the thoughts that maybe in their eyes, they still thought of me as a kid who are helpless and basically needs attention in order for me to function well in life. In all seriousness, I did appreciate the concern but there are times where as a parents, you have to put trust in your own children! Let them experience things they wanted to. Give them the impression and support they deserved. Allow them to experience making a mistake, and learn from them! Enlighten them with a headsup advice on doing things. Ini tak, what I get is

"I dont think you're suited for this kind of task"
"I dont think you are capable"
"Just do this instead! Its easier"
"Just stay back and let me do it"
"What can you do? You'll just a -insert badwords here-"
"This is a man's work not suited for kids"

What I literally did when I heard that! >.<

These series of statements had been ringing on my ears for a long time and of course like any other normal person out there, being told that you are this and that made me really sad and it gets me the most when I'm being told like this by my own parents. At some point, it makes you feel like you are a burden to them. I did noticed and aware that maybe they did that was out of pure love and compassion for their children but for me I don't really feel it that way. For example, there's this one time where I wanted to drive a car to my friend's place. I did get my driving license for a long time and I asked my parents to borrow the small car for a few hours of meeting with my mates during their semester-break. As i thought, my request was rejected, They also said :-

"Adik baru je dapat lesen kereta and dah berani nak bawa kereta pergi sana sini? Kalau rosak sapa nak bayar? Kalau accident, macam mana? Nanti bukannya kamu nak take responsibility, so tak payah lah baik duduk rumah saja, tak pon jalan kaki pergi sana"

Yeah, believe me. My mum told me that herself in front of my other relatives. ( Kalau ada sepupu yang tgh baca nie, believe me they probably can clarify this :3 ) Even if it was an act of love and compassion, that feeling was nowhere to be felt and nowhere to be seen. Welp oh well, as a son, I can't do anything but to follow what they wanted to so I'll just sabar and went "La tak boleh ke? :( Okay takpa, tak kisah :)" and walk away doing other things pretending to be happy to avoid myself from following my hati and do some stupid rebellious acts that would make them even more mad at me. From that, I thought maybe I'm just too young to earn their trust.

At times, I thought when will this "cycle of love and compassion" lasts and what can I do to actually earn that "trust"? I wonder and I really want to know :(

Five Nights! At Freddy's!

Greetings my fellow gekos! How are you guys? Hows your day? You know what, I found that its weird how I call my readers and fellow bloggers "gekos". If you ever wonder what "geko" means, ill tell you right now! *serious face*

Okay fine!, I admit! Actually I dont even know what it means, hahahahahaha. But it does sound close to gecko but meh. Anyway, when I decide the title of my blog's name, I was thinking hard and then a happy gecko suddenly pop into my head, so yeah that is how the name "HappyGeko" came from. So if you guys wanna ask what is it then this is the answer that is, if you guys ever wonder where the heck that weird name came from. Okay, getting back to the topic! ^_^

Recently I have been back into my gaming life for sometime. Again! -_- Prior to this, I have been controlling my inner urge to stop playing games for awhile and time and time again~ I fall to my demon desire which is gaming :( Letting that aside for now, as i mentioned before, in that period of time I found a new games that's really worth a try and its of course something worth mentioning. Its a horror game and its called "Five Nights At Freddy's"

Uhuh, you heard me, Its horror! What!? You dont like horror? Geez, no worries, its just a bunch of cute animals trying the to pull the strings on you when you least expected them. #sarcasmintended

PS : Contain some spoilers of the game but feel free to read anyway. Its not much.

See they are cute isn't it? Huh? No? Owh! :3

Right! Five Nights at Freddy's is actually an horror indie game and has been soooooo popular in the gaming community ever since its first release. The game had a 9/10 feedback on Reddit (A social site just like facebook i guess, except its for gamers) so from that you know that it was good. Good might be an understatement, its overall a masterpiece! The game itself had a few series with Five Nights At Freddy's 4 being the scariest (every game and every series of it is ridiculously scary actually) and last game of the franchise. As a fan of this game and any horror game in general, I myself did the honor of buying the game on Steam (all series from 1 to 4) and played all them from beginning till the end. The game is well made and it does has its own unique stories and mysteries that surrounds it in each freaking game. Kudos to the Scott Cawthon, developer of the game.

Lets get started, the game resolves on around a pizzaria in 1987 where you served as a night guard there with the sole purpose to watch through an office camera and guard the animatronics at night from walking around the pizzaria. Animatronics are robots dressed as cute bunnies and bears designed to entertain kids. You get where this is going right!? Exactly! You = Night Guard. Enemy = Animatronics. So wheres the horror part? The horror is the animatronics duh! -_-  All you have to do is sit on your office and watch certain areas through a crappy old camera and prevent the animatronics from ever reaching your office. If they did, you're done! >.< There are 4 of them and all of them are very very very cute! :3 Hewhewhew.

Lets get the introduction on these robots-from-hell, muahaha.

The 1st animatronics would be Bonnie, he's cute when I first saw him, >.> but that impression vanished when he was the first that made me jump off my seat and eventually hurt my butt. Damn it, sigh~

This is Chica, she is definitely one noisy animatronic, she really makes it hard on me to concentrate to listening the important sounds in game. Her favourite spots would probably be the kitchen since you can literally tell that its her when shes keep making the chicken sound while eating while disrupting the camera view.

This one!! Second most annoying foe in the game. His name is Foxy, and frankly speaking, this the only animatronics that annoys me the most in the game! He just disappear from its cove leaving a sign "Its Me" and sprints to kill you on your office! >.< Ill literally went cursing when hes not where hes suppose to be. You never know.

And lastly! Freddy itself!!! This one! Boy oh boy, Freddy is just the devil. He is very sneaky and spotting him on camera is like finding a needle in haystack. He shifts from place to place rather quickly and of course to fight against him, needs more focusing on each place of the pizzaria. What's scary about him is that he laugh when he move! -_- I cant remember how much time did I get jumpscares from this. Hate you so much! Ughh~ If you wonder how he laugh, then here it is.


Yeah i know, its freaking scary. Duh, its a horror game what do you expect? Luls.

Well I guess reading this isn't that satisfying isn't it? I got the full game on me, so if you gekos wanted it, just pm me on Twitter and ill give the link through my Twitter. Feel free to follow me @sam_hatsune ^_^ tho (this is not a promo whatsoever muahahahha) Before I ever give this to you guys, make sure you had a heart of steel cause there are lots and lots of jumpscares waiting for you in the game and if you are someone who get scared easily then feel free to just watch the video below. ^_^ Its my favourite gaming youtuber, Pewdiepie! There's others as well like Markiplier but Pewdiepie is my fav so far.

PS : Spoilers ahead! I dont really recommend watching since the surprise part would probably be gone hahaha~ but if you want to sure why not :3 help yourself! Playing the game would still be worth it even-tho you watched people played it ^_^

Pewdiepie is one of those gaming youtuber and currently had the most subscribers on youtube. He's swedish and very funny imo. He curses in his video, so if you easily get offended by it then the video is probably not for you, but I do recommend you to watch it, since its good content. Something good is always worth sharing ^_^. Duh! He wont get 41million subs for nothing. Anyway, feel free to leave a comment and your thoughts about this ^_^ enjoy the vids~ :D

New Year Resolve

You won't believe how my 1st 2016 expression in morning be like...

Hahahaha. But seriously, I get that crying face when thinking that I am now 22!God deymmit, I'm getting older! Why oh why!? Wish time could just stop. Anyway look at the bright side Sam! At least now you can officially sing the song 22! Betul tak, betul tak?finally huuuuu!! Hey, its called being positive so get over it! Hehe, sorry just talking to myself. Moving on..

Anyway, I hope its not too late to wish "Happy New Year or Selamat Tahun Baru" sebab rasanya I was a few days late on that! Gomenasai minna-san(I'm sorry, people). Huhuhu. Anyway, pejam celik-pejam celik its already 2016! Time flies isn't it?

Sekejab je kan? :3 Looking back, it really feels like I was still in my high school and college days :( how i missed them so much, even tho most of the time it was a bad experience (probably because I was such a spoiled brat back then and asyik kena marah hehehe, sorry teachers and my beloved senpais) but still.. the past is really that shape what we are today betul tak? I had fun and I'm really grateful for that :) Okay! Getting back to the topic. Recently, I have been fired with a lot of questions and most of it be like :-

"Whats your resolve this year?"
"Any goals this year? or perhaps a GF at least? Luls"
"Apa azam kau tahun ni?"
"Eh kau ada azam ke? Hahahaha"

Okay fine, the last question was a little bit sakai ._. but honestly, I am quite clueless myself because I did tried to make a few goals and stuff to achieve a few years back and I failed at it. Miserably!(someone slap me juseyo! :( ) Maybe I had too high expectations on myself and maybe my resolve are just not that strong -_-. It could be either of those two or both. But fear not! I finally found my resolve for this year and hopefully this time I won't fail. ^_^ but if I ever did (harap-harap tak da lah kan) feel free to do this :-

That looks like it hurts alot! Ouch!

Speaking of goals, I have a lot but one of them would probably to appreciate and be more bercermat-hermat with the stuffs around me. Usually, my stuffs, be it handphone, laptop, watch, glasses, and even my own clothes don't really lasts long meaning they get easily lost, destroyed, missing a piece, damaged or anything yang sewaktu dengannya. I can't really remember how much times did my phone had its screen cracked and my clothes torn out at certain parts of the body (usually the pants, probably sebab byk sgt stretching -_-) These series of misfortune that befall me was so frequent that even my usual tailor had recognize my ever so handsome face :P and said:-

"Eh bukan hari tu baru hantar baju/seluar ke untuk jahit?"
"Lah takkan koyak lagi? Berat nanang mung nie"

Have to admit that I myself was a little bit clumsy and careless when taking care of my stuffs. Clumsy and careless! Worst combo of an attitude you could ever ask for -_- but Ill try to be more careful next time! Pinky promise! ^_^ Another one would probably to start be more active in the morning. Usually, my sleep time went overboard and its definitely not good -_-.  How can i resist? My body literally feels like a magnet during the morning and waking up feels like a war between the desire to stay in bed and the willpower to wake up and to be honest, I'm usually the one endup losing. Gah! How I really hate that -_-.

Sometimes it went on until 12pm (usually masa cuti) and I ended up not doing anything productive for the whole day. Probably if I could, I wanted to stay awake after Subuh and tried to do a few exercises or keep myself busy for the rest of the day till nighttime. Its going to be hard but that's the plan and I wanted to make it possible as best as I can!

Anyway its 2016! I don't really want to mention anything about 2015 since its all in the past and to be fair, there's not much things worth mentioning about it. All I wanted to do from now on is to be positive, look forward and try to enjoy myself as well as be an all-around better person than I was before in 2015! How bout you guys?

K-pop Influence

안녕하세요!

I have been so much into korean and anime stuffs ever since 2011 and to be honest, it had affect me a lot in terms of appearances and lifestyle in general. Yeah really lol, and i wasn't joking about that. It was so influential that it changed me on literally everything. Like way of talking for example. Started to do a 90 degree bow whenever I met older people and also started to call my seniors "Sunbae" and my juniors "Hoobae" an-a-and geez -_- it was hard and at the same time embarrassing too. Why? Well mainly because most guys out there are not into k-pop as I am and when they found out that i did, their reaction would be like-

"Pergghhh, Sam minat korea doh!"
"Bapak ah, Kawan aku minat k-pop ah, emo la sat lagi"
"Apa barang minat Kpop, kao duduk korea la senang, jgn duduk Malaysia"
"Lol, kao minat cite korea ke? Lololololol"

Aah, i know its quite annoying or rather I would say irritating that I had to deal with those kind of reactions that I get from my friends. It was so irritating that its getting obnoxious seriously. well the good side is that i get to know a lot of girls who is deep into k-pop as I am and they are the best and supportive so far. Less bashes to deal with to be honest. The most noticeable changes would probably be my physical transformation and the way I shaped myself. I even tried made this exact hairstyle on me masa dekat MSU dulu.

Awesome isnt it? Well at least to me nampak segak kot

Hairstyle yang rambut dia tu cover dia punya forehead. I think somewhere in my phone rasanya ada gambar masa selfie hari tu, I made it as a Whatsapp profile picture rasanya but ill leave that for later. To my surprise, I had a lot of positive response on how awesome I was with the new look. And of course like any other people, I was happy to receive such compliments. Tapi sekarang ever since I went practical on school dulu masa diploma, I had to revert to my old hairstyle back hahaha *bummer*. I dont even know why. Maybe because I don't want to have that K-pop idol look when you are teaching kids in a school. For me I think as a role model, it is rather inappropriate. Lagi bila you have to deal with other senior teachers at school kan? You certainly dont want them to give you the "look" if you know what i mean.

Anyway, I went on full body changes compared to my old self on my secondary school. My old self really sucks truly speaking. Somewhere back then, a few years ago during my school period, I was a really fat boy weighing over 100kg and had NOTHING to care in the world except studies, studies and studies till my eyes are rolling...

thats probably me, a few years back

Yeah you heard me, nothing! No special relationship, not much friends, not much socializing in anyway! Ever! Only studies and getting A's goes on my mind on and on. Like a true robot made to serves its purpose to only study. They said all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy, and gentle la orang cakap (slang KL), I cant deny how true it was. Some might wonder, don't you ever went for sports? Don't even get me started about sports. Back then, I was diagnosed of having a slight asthma, not to mention my stamina is so little that even a few meters run would wore me down plus my physical disability and the discrimination between teachers to choose the better students in sports among the others is just plain hard. Its not like I never tried, I did tried! But life just seems hellish and everything just go against all odds to me. In short, any sports don't really interest me at all, and from that onward I became more anti-social and a pro-solitude kind of person.

What I usually do when I was on the beach in Terengganu

What a boring life to live huh? I know right? At times, I do get that weird "what am I doing with my life?" kind of thinking. I guess that's the downside when you had loads on lemak and being too insecure and conservative on your self at such an early age. Everything just turn against you, thats the toughest part i suppose.

Anyhow, over the years my asthma subsided and my stamina capacity improved tremendously (thanks to k-pop passion in meh) allowing me to participate in a few lots of sports just to make for the lost time. Its crazy to think fanboying over k-pop mad me became more self-conscious. I know it sound ridiculous but its the truth! :) Overtime, I shed down a lot of kilos and now still maintaining a healthy lifestyle. I guess looking back over the years, I made a lot of great progress in myself (*pats my own back*) and now started blogging and socializing on the net. To be honest, I am quite grateful to get into this Korean Wave, it brings a lot of good memories. Big changes! :)