Father's Day

He was stern, strict and overall a very hard-working man towards his responsibilities. He is also very quiet and observant towards everything around him especially his family. He is also a very good listener who listens well to others but yet rarely speak out his hearts towards the thing that he loves. He is by far the best planner ( kalau tak macam mana leh jadi director company kan? ) 

When we were kids, between my mom and my dad. I was afraid of my dad the most. Since he rarely talks to us siblings, each time he utters a word. Its a rule. Its an order! If you try to defy that, a wooden cane or a hanger is waiting for you 5 mins from that point. If he asked you to stay at home, then be at home. If he wanted you to do that, do it now. No talk, no games, no chilling around until the order is done. Whats terrifying is when we siblings were being rebellious, my mum just had to say " Okay, kamu degil ea? Nanti ibu bagitau Ayah!! ABANGG!! TGK BUDAK2 NIIII!! "

And my brother Syafiq be like :-

I be like :-

My younger brother, Ammar be like :-

Its true lol. Lets be honest here, its because of that, we are all able to be at least a decent human in life. Therefore I am glad. But we are still rebellious at times. LOL

I guess he had a solid reason as to why he's being strict on all of us all this time.Well what do you expect from someone who had to raised 4 hard-headed boys in his family? Hahahaha. Its only natural for him to act that way. There are times where I once texted my Ayah just to tease him kan, I showed this 1 picture of a girl who is really beautiful and asked him about his opinions.

Soo you see, he got no chill hahaha. I'm just kidding and yet he went straight asked me " Dah cukup duit ke belum? " Yeah I know his intension was good and he really did care for his children's future but well its worth the shot. Anyway, he's been busy for awhile now with work and recently he had to go to 4 different states just to attend a meeting in a day. Countless hours of driving and I know its exhausting. Which means can't really celebrate the special day together again. Oh well, maybe next time. Remember I did a photo collage for Mother's Day ? I did for my father too this time.

Hehehe.. it wasn't much and to be honest I don't really have much photo of my father on a single photo. He rarely selfies too and that photo of his, I got it when I requested of it for mother's day gift. Lets just say its really precious. Hahaha.

Anyway all in all, Happy Father's day to all Dads, Papa, Father, Ayah of all ages out there. Hope you guys are doing well and have a good day! ^_^

Selfish and Selfless

There are times in life, its okay to be selfish first. Let me put it this way...

When you're in an airplane, before take off the flight attendant always says...

" In an event of an emergency, an oxygen mask will automatically appear in front of you. If you are travelling with a child or someone who requires your assistance, secure your mask FIRST and then assist the other person "

So you see, Life is like this...

Before you go and try to help somebody else, you gotta go first and help yourself. You gotta secure yourself. Some people may consider it to be selfish, but if you having troubles like panting or hyperventilating in life and you go help somebody else with that condition? That looks suicidal doesn't it? I don't care how good your intentions, chances are. You both will not gonna make it. So you see, there's a reason as to why they said secure your mask first before helping somebody else. That's how important it is, to keep yourself stable. After that you can help the child, the old lady, the old man, the guy next to you and so on.

So you see what am I trying to convey here? In life, to be the most help to others, you gotta take the time to secure your own masks first! To secure yourself financially, mentally, physically, and most importantly spiritually. That means you gotta leave your friends, family, the TV, turn of the games and focus on yourself. Make it your first priority! Which is why you see, in operation rooms, aint no visitors allowed, no guest, no friends, no family.

Why you might ask?

Its because the patient is undergoing a transformation.

Well in that same way, you must get by yourself, if you want to transform into your best version.

Let me finish it with this.

If you have your mask properly secured and you are able to breathe. It becomes your DUTY, your OBLIGATION to help others, secure their masks first. So to simply put it, there is nothing wrong to being selfish in the beginning but make sure the end game is to be selfless. Why? Because in a plane, to be the only one breathing in it while everybody is unconscious, will surely put you in a crash course where there's only loneliness, despair and disaster.

Anyhow when talking about planes, let us all took a little of our time to send prayers to those who were unfortunate in the MH370 and MH17 plane crashes. It has been 4 long years since the incident.

Penyakit kronik aku!?

I came to realise that I have been suffering this 1 disease after all this years but I just didn't know the right term for it. It has been awhile and to be honest, it kinda affects me in everyday basis since its basically involves relationships with people. I don't really know what is the correct term for it until my friend texted me..

Yeah altruism! O_O

Okay first of all, you guys must be wondering what does this " altruism " means right? Well, I try to make it as simple as possible. Altruism is the belief in or practice of disinterested and selfless concern for the well-being of others. In other words, selflessness. Kinda like over caring for somebody of some sort but its not it.

Hahaha, I know I know. Sorry about the title, yeah its misleading, same goes for others misleading links title out there haha, okay2 its soo unlike me huh? Hahaha, Gurau doh sorry2 hehe.

Most people sees it as a good thing but to me its a little bit different. Different as in bad or good you might say? Its bad. Well kinda.

I probably would say its bad because sometimes I put others way ahead of myself instead of my own resulting in me being easily used and stepped on. Several times it has been this way for me actually, where I am being too generous, too kind, too soft, too laid back on doing important stuffs, too bertolak ansur for somebody without thinking of my own responsibilities. I guess this is the bad side of altruism where literally if you met the wrong people, they could take advantage of your kindness. Its between the good and the bad crowd. I ought to remind myself to always be careful when choosing your friends.

Come to think of it, I have been like this since I was around 18 where I began joining this NGO organisation in my diploma days where we conduct visits elderly home, do some random charity, raised some funds, conducting activites held by the organisation and those petty stuffs you see. Now, Im working soo I kinda missed those times. Theres hardly any free daytime for me ever since and I don't even know any NGO here to join.

Altruism, hmmmm. I don't really know how to explain it further, but to me when I see people express their words of gratitude or even smile because of something that I do. I got this an urge of satisfaction and that alone literally would made my day better. Its not an act to be likeable by the society nor do I making a name of myself by doing as such. Its just a simple good deed. Who knows? Maybe this type of stuffs that I do would instils good behaviours to today's society kan. Would that be awesome? Hehe, its all about spreading love anyway ^_^