Near-death Experience

Have you guys ever faced a situation where you thought that if you didn't do things that you did, you probably be on somewhere else bad? No? :( well I did!

The title was quite serious doesn't it? Well it is! Lets get started...

A few days back, I had this one gruesome experience and probably one of the most frightening scenario that I had in my life ever! It all took place at the plant's worksite where there's an inspection work to be done at certain areas of the place and as usual, an inspector had to present at the plant's equipment for a daily checkup. Sooo, like any other day of the week, I got my work stuffs, safety equipment and other inspection stuffs of the place and went on straight over to the designated place. It was all fine and good as usual until the moment when I went outside of the place to get ready to go back...

Before that, I do have this weird feeling of out of place somehow when I wanted to go back and my instincts also keep telling me to double check the site to make sure there was nothing that I left behind, but too bad for me I ignored what I felt and kept on packing things so that I could went back home early. I was also pretty much sure at that time, I had all my stuffs with me hence it was no need of me to make a double check on that place anymore and so I rushed home.

As soon as I stepped outside of the barricaded place on that site, I felt this rushing gust of wind that goes on straight down on me. Before I could look up to satisfy my curiosity of whats going on top of me, I was hit down directly by a big screw-like metal, the size of a women's purse. Bangg! It was a clean blow! And it hit directly on top of my safety helmet! I flinched for a few seconds and it got me kneeling down on the floor. My eyes nearly went blank and I nearly passed out but thanks to my quick reflexes I get out of that same spot as quick as I can. There are like a few other similar screws like that, fell from an estimated 5 stories-tall after I dodge that series of bullets from hell. That place would have been my grave if I continue to stay there.

Ughhh~ but in any case, Alhamdulillah because lucky for me, my head was protected by my safety helmet. However, the helmet that I wore were nearly broke into 2 thanks to that sheer force of the impact from the screw that I guess was weighing over 5kg. After that, with chills on all over my body at that time, I walk out of the place slowly while holding my nearly broken helmet tightly afraid of another unknown thing yet to come unexpectedly.

As soon as I reach home, I found myself in a traumatized state. I couldn't really function well in my daily stuffs and my hands literally goes against my will and I kept breath heavily from certain time to time. Judging from that, there was clearly something wrong with me.

I had to take a leave for a day just to calm myself down on the next day. In my mind, I get a lot of thoughts and some of them aren't even worth looking back for like for example

"What if I looked up earlier O_O?"
"What if the screw eventually hit my other parts of the body!? Like my shoulder or my back? Wouldnt I be on my wheelchair for the rest of my life!?"
"What if I don't wear my safety helmet properly and wouldn't a direct hit would left me dead?"
"What if I didnt reacted as fast and i get hit by the second wave of the screws that fell, wouldn't I be seriously injured that way!?

Those are the same questions that kept hovering over my mind from time to time. This is of course concerning about life and death!! I have to admit, I was over exaggerating on those what if's questions but I just can't helped it. I wanted to tell somebody of that to someone I felt comfortable to but I just kept it all in until now. And right now, at this moment, I just thought I shouldn't kept it all to myself when I knew that I can't handle it and so i post it here.

In all seriousness, one thing that I am really grateful now is that, I am able to see the world for another day and spend time with the things that I enjoyed doing for awhile. It does makes me think that I should enjoy the things that I do and stop being sad much and enjoy what life has to offer. Don't live a life full of regrets and stuffs

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah and thank god for saving my life, I am truly grateful. Only god knows how much I am grateful for able to breath again for today. It is a good feeling.

And nowww!!!!!!!!!!!! Time to file a report for the case that happen to the authority in-charge! Siap lah korang! You won't get away with it, I promise.. Grrrr

Weekends

Weekends! Weekends! Weekends!

I don't know about you guys, but every time its the end of the week, ill be like :-

Haha really luls but in all seriousness, working is getting quite boring when you basically doing the same thing over and over, meeting the same people over and over and at some point, I do felt wish to go back to my study period I missed it a lot. Messing around, going to library, meeting new people, getting along with the girls~ muahahaha. Its fun. Anyways, whenever its weekend, I spend my time on my keyboard (ever since that day) practicing certain songs that I love and getting good at it slowly time to time. Since today's topic is about how I spent my weekend, well lets get started!

Ever since i bought my keyboard, my outside life has been a little bit distorted. Less sports, less exercise, and overall its bad, so i decide that why not we all go take a few fresh air at the beach or some sort and so I did!

Tadaa! and there's my mum again. Well she's the one insisting on taking a few selfies so ill just go with it, Terengganu has been really rainy + windy these days. The winds are just so strong that is messed my hair so bad that its so hard to keep it straight and I'm quite lucky that I didn't get blown away tho (probably would be if we spent too much time on the beach haha)

I guess its probably the season. Its also been raining all the time and the first time in forever, I kinda missed the sun . Lets just pray that my hometown didn't get flooded. Well to conclude i guess my weekend for last week was more productive to say the least. Maybe I should start taking things like playing keyboard moderately I don't really want it to affect my current lifestyle and right now I wonder what will I do for activities for the next weekend

Power of Calm Music

A few days back, I found out that one of housemate had this weird taste in music (1st impression I guess) . I was on the living room with my laptop after done watching 2 episodes of Running Man ( just to make sure that I don't miss any of those ever again! Hohoho ) , I guess it was around 2am++ I think and I heard this faint bird and raining + thunder sounds on the other side of the room. It wasn't that loud and its more like close to faint voices of that and I barely able to hear it since the door to the room (where it came from) was close uptight. 

For a second there, I thought my friend was practising some weird dark magic or something in his room, (betul doh seriously gotta consider something like that happen when you're in a community ) I kept approaching the room little by little with my crappy phone as a torch and slightly open the door since I was super curious of whats going on. Lucky for me, it wasn't locked. I did opened the door, and everyone was asleep as I thought they would. I also found out that his lappy was on and his speaker was on this peace-sound-like video on Youtube. Being so confused and sleepy that time of night, I went out and sleep in my room.

The next morning, I asked him why he had that kind of video playing when he's sleeping to which he simply reply that its for soul-calming procedure. To my surprise, he also told me that he had been doing that since he was 11, Sometime, during his childhood times, he often had nightmares at night and currently one of those people out there who suffers from somniphobia (a condition where a person had  fear to sleep) To his perspective, with his countless times of experience of getting that kind of nightmares everyday when he went to sleep, he actually scared that he can't wake up the next morning. 

With that being told, I jokingly replied that "maybe kau tak baca doa kot sebelum kau tidur" and he answered "Dah macam-ii cuba der, tapi tak da function, bertahun dah doh what do you think? Tapi sekarang dah semakin okay" 

Somewhere, I do heard of such condition before back on my uni days but never actually met people who have that. (Heard it when I learn Psychology Development class, i think) He also continued that usually people like him are more likely to suffer from insomnia due to his phobia ( if it isn't treated ) but lucky for him he's able to find a remedy for that. It is the music. It literally helps him to sleep better, faster and sometime he, himself didn't realize he was asleep. My guess is that the music probably give him the thought he was somewhere in a nice place in his dream which probably could be the thing that let him project that kind of dream every time he went to sleep. The power of music, its awesome come to think of it. Well I guess that kind of videos it serve its purpose. I really thought it doesn't have anything useful in particular and I was proven wrong.

For once, never did I thought such music exist on Youtube and now I'm probably got hooked into that kind of calm music as well. Seriously lol, if you heard it, it was really-ii calming and if you are someone who love mother nature like I am, you probably dig into stuff like this. Its like a huge amount of positive energy entering your brain all of the sudden, and if you close your eyes, your imaginations will be something that calm your soul. Knowing that, I went full on searching mode for music like that on the net for quite sometime and there are tonnes of it! O_O From nature sound, chirping birds, raining thunderclap, calm piano instrumental, and even horror kind sound ( I wonder for what that kind of horror sound is for -_- ). You name it! Everything is there~ and now Ill probably going to use it just to get to sleep faster. 

Muahaha~ Oyaasumi! Minna-san! ^_^