Special day

Hiya guys! Sorry for posting soo late! Remember that I did published a post regarding my upcoming birthday 2 days ago?. I spoke of what I desired for my birthday. In that post I did said that I love surprises and was hoping for one to actually happened.

Today on my special day, I eventually got 1 of those surprises from my parents, Frankly speaking, anything from them was the one that I expected the least since, you know Melaka and Paka jauh gila kot. Kudos to them tho for being able to still surprises me from a far, What they did is that, they actually bought me a secret recipe chocolate moist cake and and of course two spicy chicken buckets of KFC which is my favorite!! They planned the surprises with my safety supervisor and my workmates behind my backs. Ughh didn't know that they could be sneaky at times. Anyway, thanks Ibu, and thanks Ayah! Terubat rindu korang berdua kat sini, Still, I missed you guys soo much.

Also!! Before I forget to mention, I got one of the earliest birthday wishes from my friends overseas the moment the clock strike 12am...

I admit it does sounds funny but actually I'm quite moved when Wani said that. Haha sampai alarm kot! Eventho, I refused to believe but she certainly made my day thats for sure.

Well these was one of my closest friends wishes that made me got that "Awww :(" kind of feel. Hehe thanks Sabrina and Byatul, you guys are the best! Maybe some other time or mungkin next year, we can get together and lepak sama2. Missed you guys soo much too.

This is my chocolate moist birthday cake! Doesn't look that tempting but the moment you eat that, you definitely want more! Duh its Secret Recipe! What do you expect?  You guys must be wondering.. "kenapa ada baby dekat cake tu? Bukan ko da besar ke". Haha seriously, its a prank by my safety supervisor and our ever-so-beautiful office clerk, Naim and Farhana who bought the cake together. He always teases me with that name before because of the certain girl known as "Beby" that I'm closed to in Petronas Methyl-Tertiary-Butyl-Ether SDN. BHD (MTBE) eventho we had nothing on each other. Soo now they put it on the cake........

-_- Haih! Well I guess I'm gonna let this slide for now.

And now I'm going to remember that the rest of my life. Anyways, thank you for buying me the cake and siap kau, Naim. Siot ah hahaha.

I don't know what more could I do to express my gratitude towards all of you guys. I know I have been saying this like a lot, but...

I'll be honest with you dear readers,

I actually was skeptical since to openly celebrate my birthday with cakes and foodstuff and with everyone at the same time looks rather seemingly impossible. Actually the day before my birthday, I eventually went to the nearest cake shop and ordered a small cake to commemorate my birthday alone just in case nobody remembered. Weird isn't it? Its called " Sediakan payung sebelum hujan ". Luckily I cancelled that order as soon as I smell about the surprises.  My mind was so sure that nobody would even remembered it at the time. It was to that extend since this year I felt like I should somehow celebrate my special day by either doing it by myself or with people. So when I found out about this, I was shocked and baffled for sure. Baffled like how most people today were shocked when Donald Trump actually won the presidency. Hahaha, well let's just say that this was beyond my expectation. I certainly didn't see that coming.

Nevertheless, It happened and truly I am grateful and glad that I have such wonderful people around me. Cheers for more years of happiness and success ahead for me. ^_^

Birthday?

Heya guys! 08 of November will be coming really soon andddd.. yeah you guessed it from the title! Yeah its my birthday, this time I guess Ill be celebrating my special day with my friends instead of my family here. In Melaka!! Sekejab je kan? How time really flies, it feels like I am just 7 years old last year... and now I'm 22.

Perhaps nows a good time to finally sing 22 hoho!

Its weird come to think of it since last year I celebrated it with my parents and as far as I remembered, it was festive! Everybody was like " Hey jom lepak mana2 hari ni " " Lepak pantai nak? Aku belanja" and so on. In short, the day was indeed surprisingly special and I had the best do-nothing-day for the whole day!

And now lets be honest, I kinda missed those days.

My workmates probably won't remember about my birthday anyway, and I guess knowing that I will be celebrating it without my family for this year too, makes me kinda sad. Well I guess maybe I should set up my own birthday cake, you know just for cheering myself up.. just maybe you see, I don't really expect any surprises but I was hoping for it tho at the very least! Cause duh! I love surprises! 

My birthday, 8th of November falls on Tuesday, and its apparently a working day...not that special too bad tho. Maybe I should take a day off? Hahaha! If its falls around weekend, I would have take a ride to any shopping mall around enjoying myself for the whole day. Probably pergi area Melaka Sentral kot. If the day falls around that, being alone works out too I guess. :)

Blocked

I have been so much into dilemma these past few days. It messed up my mind and lets be honest because of that, I can't really function well in my daily activities. Even my friends noticed the differences between the daily "me" and the problematic overthinking "me". When I'm sad, I tend to find some place quite where I can be alone and from that point on, I just thought of myself of how or what things that I had done and what circumstances that affects me in the current situation. It could be literally anything from life choices, mistakes, relationship breakups, yeah pretty those petty things that came to mind.

As for me, recently I found that someone that I admired (a very good writer) and looked up to block me from social media sites, sadly enough it was both from Twitter and from Facebook. I still remembered our first meeting was like so lively and cheerful. She welcomed me with open arms after I stated that I was envious of her works and writing style. Things went downhill when I started treated her as friends, she began acting weird and starting to keep all her stuffs personal. I'm not that kind of people who gives a f***  concerned about her personal life at all. I just wonder as to why I get treated this way when clearly I don't know what kind of wrong doings that I made.

Its like getting random punishments or being casted out from a crowd for no reason. Being the ever so curious person that I am, I do wanted answers from her actions and in my multiple tries, I did add her on back, but my efforts were futile and what's more saddening is that I get blocked when I researched her name on FB. I was like...

" Geez, she must be hating me soo much huh? "

" What do I do, to deserve this? "

That kind of thoughts kept circulating my mind like race cars racing on a track circle. It just kept coming and coming. Well, I guess maybe she was insecure with someone she barely knows but lets be honest here, if she ever did asked me anything about myself, I will gladly answer them lol. Yeah everything! Nothing to hide and besides she's someone I admired a lot. So, lying would never be an option for me. Its too bad that she choose to shut down one of her loyal supporters/readers. I don't mind actually and I respect her decision 100% but its just too bad that she did that out of any solid explanations at all. I would truly love a decent reason as to why, but I knew she never will, even though she read this post. Seriously, just 1 reason and I'm out from your so-called social space.

One may say " Maybe dia rasa tak selesa dgn ko or maybe she's just being too insecure "

Well it could be, but I never did anything that disturb or butting in her private life or apa2 yg sewaktu dengannya soo what and why me of all people -_- being treated like this. Well from this point on, I'm just gonna do what she seemingly wanted me to do. Ignore her. I will try my very best to do so tho. She looks like she wanted me to f*** off anyway . Sure why not kan.

To be honest, I had a very good impression of her the 1st time I knew her. Too bad, she broke that expectation now. She was not as nice and humble as I thought she is.