Introvert

I believe having a healthy mind is a top priority at least for myself. A healthy mind leads to a healthy life and to be at peace with yourself is what I believe to be our goal during the limited time we have on this planet but in order to achieve a healthy mind, you must first understand how your specific one works and accepting that you may be different from others, which I felt is 100% okay. I am an introvert or at least I believe I fall somewhere in that category. Not to be confused with antisocial or be simplified as shyness, introversion can be misinterpreted by those who are unaware of it and by no means am I an expert on this topic. I'm just hyper self-aware and this is what I know.

To understand introversion and its counterpart, extroversion, you must see it as a result of what drains and recovers your energy. Introverts lose energy from being around people for long periods and recharge their energy by spending time alone. Extroverts are the opposite where they tire from being alone and recharge by being social is very rare to be strictly one or the other. We all fall at different ranges on the spectrum. I enjoy being alone.

Well not all the time but I have lots of hobbies that can be done alone and those times in solitude are a great way for me to reflect on myself in whatever current obstacles. I'm trying to overcome whether it be relationship matters career matters ideas for new blog posts. I enjoy just thinking about things. If you ever hang out with me and notice that I'm just staring blankly at your elbow and you ask me.

" Hey dude, whatcha thinking about? " 

and I reply..

" Nothing "

I probably mean I forgot because I have been so deep in mental isolation that I can't figure out how to verbalize my thoughts.

Why do killer whales get the killer prefix when so may other sea animals are predators as well? Don't most fish kill and eat other fish below their food chain? Hey fun facts, killer whales are not even whales, they're dolphins dowh!

" Why do people leave mean comments on social medias? " 

It might be because they are damaged in some way and are using you as an outlet to project those insecurities or they lack the empathy to understand the emotional consequences of their words and anonymity on the internet gives them a false sense of invincibility a taste of the nectar unavailable to them in the real world.

" I like this girl. Why doesn't she like me back? " 

Its maybe because your self entitlement has blinded you from understanding that it is not your place to complain about people criteria for attraction and that romantic reciprocity is never guaranteed. You just ain't got the sauce, accept it.

See? These things on my mind are what I meant. I mean yes I enjoy having company and being around others as well, but there are things about isolation that I just appreciate. Some of you might not understand the appeal because you may directly correlate seclusion with loneliness. If you are alone, you must be lonely and being lonely is bad.

That's not true at all.

You can be in a dense population and still feel lonely. Growing up I found myself in all sorts of groups and situations where I felt lonely despite being surrounded by people. Physical loneliness versus mental loneliness. To be alone doesn't mean you are lonely. Loneliness is just a result of one's negative perception of being alone, but introverts flipped that mindset and take on a positive perspective on it.

I prefer to do a lots of things alone. I grew up playing video games and while many games are made for people to enjoy with others. I find great value in single players games like God of War, Metal Gear Solid, Half Life, Dark Souls, Call of Duty, Final Fantasy and etc.

I have a habit of disappearing from the world for a few days. Sometimes weeks because I become so immersed in the world of the games that I play. I find myself playing a lot of online games this way where although its encouraged to be played with others. I often choose to be a lone wolf and experiences the game solo while still appreciating the seldom interactions with other players. I value the freedom of being alone not having to worry about the others and only myself.

As selfish as it sounds the only burdens you can bear are only limited to your own. A lot of online multiplayer games encourage teamwork and its necessity to overcome certain trials or enemies. But I find it very fulfilling to discover that solo players are able to achieve the same feats by themselves. There's nothing more thrilling than witnessing an underdog achieve what others believe that they couldn't on their own. Taking this a step back, I see this reflect how I act in the real world. I like venturing out and achieving things on my own

It helps me discover and understand things about what I can do and what I am incapable of doing and need improvement on. And those are lessons I could only learn by being my own teacher. My mind is at peace when things make sense or at least when its reasonable for things to be the way they are. They don't necessarily have to be beneficial. I just seek closure through rationality.

Why do I have a surplus of chins? Because I have a declining metabolism and my eating and exercise habits are inconsistent due to lack of self-discipline. I am at peace with it for now.

I may be too self-critical at times, but I feel that's it's necessary so that I can grow as a person. It's easy to look at others and make judgments based on our perspectives. But rarely are people able to reflect on themselves failing to see their own faults and often failing to see their own beauty as well. Learn to both criticize and appreciate yourself so that you can continuously develop a better you.


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