Eh 2017?

I know this post was long since overdue but Happy New Year guys! Que in the fireworks please!!! Pew pew pew~~~~~

I am really sorry for not blogging for some time. Yeah, yeah I know it has been awhile. Its funny how I could somehow hear that some of you right now are babbling on me. Okay straight to the point, actually one of a few reasons that I have been on hiatus because my daily working timetable has been packed. Like super overwhelmingly, outrageously, unbelievably, bly-bly and add some more bly2 here packed. Nothing like the usual and because of that, I almost had no time to just sit back, articulating thoughts and ideas in a form of writing. Lets be honest, I am not that kind of person that could just think of a few fantastic, awesome words out of the blue and conjuring them into meaningful sentences. It's not that easy but isnt that hard either. Oh well, but I promise that I will try to blog more often alright? Heee

2016 oh 2016.

Come to think of it, theres so much stuffs that happened and almost all of them were meaningful. Personally, I would label this year as "The Gaining Experience Year". I tried a lot of stuffs both indoors and outdoors activities. I went to gym, played paint-ball, played taqraw with the grownups, played countless sports ever since I went to Melaka, I met a lot of people. From pakcik-makcik-abang-adik-kakak, kakak pretend to be abang and soo on and it was fun. Knowing people and sharing experience to each other, all that stuffs, you know. Sometimes when I looked myself in the mirror, I felt proud of me and how I progress a lot in terms of getting better in life. A few years ago, the "Sam" you knew were actually not that kind of person who enjoys any activities at all. I hardly join any sports back then during school days and those were probably the reason why kot. Even during PE ( Pendidikan Jasmani ) Everybody would enjoy themselves playing football and sorts and there I was being the referee. Also not to mention, I would also be that 1 boy that count the scores just to be somehow useful to the crowd. To put it simply, I am "kaki bangku". The old me actually prefers hanging out in my "solitary confinement" aka my room alone, watching movies, playing games, and stuffs. But the one thing that I can't forget is what mom always love to babble on me, she would usually said "asyik terperap dalam bilik je" and proceed to scold me afterwards for not socializing much. She got mad at me countless times over for that too and I never blame her. She was right all along and boy oh boy was I soo stubborn back then. Hahaha. Geez oh well. I admit back then I was pathetic. I'm glad that I moved on from that phase ughhh... come to think of it, geez, I should have realised that sooner. Would probably accomplished more in life.

Hah! Amik, thats a whole paragraph.. geez thats long. Oh yeah! With every new year, theres always new resolution.

And my resolution for this year is......

Hahahaha, please tell me you laugh at this. 

Whats with that look? You wanna know whats mine for this year? Well..

Sorry to disappoint you but I guess its just the same as last year actually. If you wonder what that is, you can always see this post I wrote last year. Its just to be a better person today from what you are yesterday. Its simple. Sometimes I felt like, why do people had to wait for new year to make changes to themselves? I mean why not now? When you wanted a change, you just have to do it now instead of procrastinating until next year. 1 small guess is probably because its a trend. People do it and the other follow. Or probably just a milestone but I guess better something than nothing isn't it?

Oh well. Before I forgot there's 1 thing I would like to tell you guys! I was thinking of getting contacts but I am quite afraid of those news recently where they said some were really bad and some could make your eyes go blind and sorts so maybe some enlightenment from you guys might make me think hard about getting one.

But I do wonder, which one looked better? Without glasses or with glasses...

Hahaha, okay I admit the collage was way to cliche..

Meh, I'll probably looked better without it.. thats what i feel tho. Anyway to all my faithful readers and followers and stalkers alike, (Macam ada, and I knew who that is) Happy New Year!! May you guys be blessed enough to spend this new year with your parents, friends, loved ones. Be grateful and you will have only good things coming your way. Happy 2017

Yours faithfully, 

Sam Rahmat

Jodoh

Have you guys ever had this feeling where you are missing someone so much but you don't even know who that is? Have you ever had this inexplicable, unexplained, weird longing for somebody? Have you ever feel so isolated in your life that somehow your soul are spiritually yearning for a touch from someone? Yes? No?

Well, the reason that I asked such questions are because these past few days have been really hard for me. I have been sick for a couple of days and that is definitely bad news. Not only that, the workloads on my side have been piling up since I took a few days off to cool off my head, body and of course taking medicines along the way. I still caught a very bad cold and fever after taking like 6 pills of paracetamol and Geez! the medicines barely works. It took a few days to get my stamina back up and in those 2 days of "holiday". What do I do? Spending time on my bed, doing nothing but eat and sleep. Ughh! Boring af.

Whats interesting is that during those days, I overthink a lot, especially about my jodoh and my future. I was stricken by fear of not meeting a potential jodoh of my own in due time. I was scared to the thought of getting married when I reach my old days. I was engulfed with anxiety of losing someone who I treasure the most and those who I had struggles and hardships building a connection with. I got really worried that if my relationship with my potential jodoh doesn't work out so well considering I never had the chance to get into a relationship of my own during my teenage days, Therefore, no experience whatsoever. 

I never feel the pain of breaking up with someone, and as a result, I am terrified of not capable of handling it later in my life. I never experienced being treasured by someone else aside from my family. I never had any intimate talks with anybody ever. I never bought gifts or plan surprises like most couples do. I never ever been addressed sweet nicknames by anybody. Haih.. Sad life huh?

All of these.

I never experienced them. I wanted to tho.. soo bad :/

At some point, I felt.. unwanted. 

Haih, I guess maybe God loves me and doesn't want me to endure all those stuffs or perhaps because I am not ready or handle it well enough in my current state. Hmmmm..

Anyway, putting all the negativity aside, I never lose hope to Allah, berdo'a yang Dia sudah sediakan yang terbaik untuk hambaNya and in fact, I always cite this in my prayers and in my do'a everytime I finished solat.

Learnt it from my Ustazah

However, somewhere in myself, I deeply wished that such things would happened to me, even its for a short while (harap2 tak la kan). Then again when I think about it, if the love bring more harm than good, I would rather be single till the rest of my life, but hopefully I didn't laa kan. I wished myself the best. Heck, who don't want the best for everything in their life?

Come to think of it, I have been talking about jodoh for quite a few posts of mine like for example this one here. Geez, whats happening to me and I don't even know -_-. Its actually rare of me to speak stuff like this soo openly. Oh well anyway, I'm sorry if this emo post of mine is kinda out of the blue and looks more like a rant haha but indeed this is what I feel right now and I'm just getting it out of my chest. 

My Views On "Heathens"

Heya guys! Sup!?

I have been listening to this song titled "Heathens" by 21 pilots for quite sometime now and lets just say that I'm addicted to it hahaha. I have been singing the song for awhile, and something just triggers me to write about it. I was actually curious about the lyrics and lucky for you guys, I'll go in depth about it for today, I just felt like talking about the song. Well first things first, let us all know what Heathens means..

If you don't know about the song, then maybe you should give it a listen 1st. It might help going through to what am going to tell you later. Do pay attention to the lyrics...

21 pilots is an awesome band. They released Heathens in 2016 as part of the Suicide Squad soundtrack. Yeah, lagu tuu laaa haaa, Believe it or not, I never did get to watch the movie in the cinemas because workloads!! O_O ughh...
Okay moving on to the analysis..

The song is actually about the singer, Tyler Joseph's friends and how he wants his listener to treat them, but even more specifically it seems to be about how Tyler Joseph wants Christians to reach out and witness to people who aren't Christians. Yeah betul laa, kinda like berdakwah for Christians to none believers aka his friends aka The Heathens

He sings in his song " All my friends are Heathens take it slow, wait for them to ask you who you know ". It means he wants Christians to be careful about telling strangers about Jesus (PBUH) and instead to develop a relationship with them first. When singing about his friends, Joseph explains that they will never know the psychopath, murderer, freakshow sitting next to us, and this is because people hide their problems. They don't just opened up to strangers. Well duh! None of us do.

Hmmmmmm,... okay laa.. Well maybe some of us kot..

I know some people who do.. moving on.

and if Christians don't know the half of the abuse, how are they going to be able to effectively meets these people needs? Joseph also says that his friends don't deal with outsiders very well and that they can smell your intentions which begs the next question..

Why would Joseph friends listen to a Christian that they don't even know especially when it comes to big topics like eternity, afterlife and their own personal problems? Kinda out of place isn't it?

Thankfully, the solution comes in the chorus when Joseph sings " Take it slow, and wait for them to ask you who you know " and frankly people will only ask you who you know if they understand that you care about them. Macam peribahasa dulu-dulu, " no one cares how much you know until they know how much you care " It does also means he wants Christian listeners to be more careful around hurting people and to be wary of sounding like a Salesman when they promised that they can solve a person's life biggest problem especially since Joseph friends don't seem to respond very well to that kind of an approach.

But do you know whats the best part about the song? Joseph actually accept the listener into his group acknowledging the humble or ideal listener's willingness to take it slow and to admit to his or her own struggles.

Last part dalam lagu tu, Joseph sings " I tried to warn you just to stay away and now they are outside ready to bust, it looks like you might be one of us " The thing outside could be everybody's personal struggles or they could be Christians who want to take the time to know Joseph's friends. Either way, Heathens tells us the story of at least 1 person who is willing to take the time to know people and asks the rest of us to be willing to take it slow too.

Informative isn't it? Well at least now you know. I knew it has something to do with people with personal problems and of course religion-related, after all they were talking about the Heathens to begin with.